my soul needs music
I think I need to start singing again.
When I was younger, I was always intimately tied to music: singing in choirs, playing instruments, dancing in different dance styles.
There’s something about music- whether making it or moving to it that settles my soul in a beautiful way. I lose my anxiety, my thoughts. I’m immersed, I’m peaceful.
But having graduated college, I've lost immediate access to all of those opportunities, and now the only ways I can really indulge are by singing or dancing by myself alone in my room. And that’s still freeing, but I do miss the full experience and community a little.
There’s such a sense of joy in making music or dancing with other people. Perhaps it’s the fact you’re all participating in such a bright version of human expression, but the delight is basically tangible.
And I need to find a way to fully participate in it again. For the good of my soul.
~nan