I think I need to cut out coffee
My relationship with coffee has always been a little odd. You would think that someone who has been drinking it ever since they were a teenager would eventually come to like the taste or at least get used to it, but no, I still very much dislike it. The bitterness is so unpleasant that I always add in ‘ungodly’ amounts of sugar and milk before I even attempt to drink it.
So, why am I even drinking it if I dislike its true form so much?
Laziness, I suppose. I would drink tea more regularly, but the process of boiling the water and waiting for the tea to seep is too time consuming to fit well into my morning routine. Coffee is easy to whip up in the morning; it’s a quick fix.
It’s also really nice to have a hot drink sometimes. I get cold easily and it’s very pleasant to have a drink that can warm my hands and my soul.
However, I think I do need to wean off of it for a while. I’ll be exhausted, as I do rely on the caffeine to jump start my brain in the morning. But I’m an anxious person and I’ve noticed that coffee in larger amounts affects me incredibly negatively, exacerbating my existing anxiety to nearly unbearable levels.
It’s funny thinking about giving coffee up though, because I don’t like it that much and yet the prospect is daunting. I think it’s just me not wanting to make things harder for myself, and that’s fair, but sometimes sacrifices do make your life better and I do need to get used to that idea.
~nan